steady employ at his Trade getting a good living &c, but as I have remarked in the
first part of this sheet a reccollection of the past seems to cast a dark shade
both over the scene & ^my own^ mind for I must say that I have been next to being confounded
as it regards many things relating to my Journeying West. I set out with a full conf-
idence that it was according to the will of God I also felt full confidence in the good
feelings of my family friends towards me honestly supposing that I should enjoy
all that confidence, good will, & friendship from my relatives that I had been
accustomed to from all my particular acquaintances & it is a fact that
however unworthy I may have been to recieve the attention, good will &
respect of my neighbours & friends heretofore, I have notwithstanding en-
joyed a good degree of the Same & have invariably fared the best where I have
been most acquainted, & I have had some intimations of the respect which
I have formerly had paid to me since I have been at Burlington, Des Moines County, Iowa|Burlington]], Mrs Stare & her
Sister Daughters of Mr James The Camp of have paid all that atte-
ntion ^to^ me since I have been here that could even have been asked by a person of
high rank, Mr Stare has a splended house which he build in connection with
Govenor Clark they live in sight of us. Mrs Stare & Susan have called upon us a
number of times they called soon after I came & Mrs S. gave me a very pressing
invitation to come & spend a day with them ^&^ to take off any Idea of its being
a mere compliment she adds It would seem so good to have a visit with you
I have visited them twice & spent the Day in the most agreeable manner I felt my
self perfectly at home in their society or as with home friends alth'o they are acc-
ounted as some of the most Proud & high feeling Ladies that Burlington offer'd
Indeed they live in high stile I have also had Letters from Pennett Redman &
I can assure you, they give evidence of having been written in the Spirit of the
highest degree of friendship she speaks of my "most precious Letter" (as she terms
it) & speaks of the numberless times as it were she calld at the office
before she read one from me & that the days seemed to her like weeks
so great was her anxiety to hear from me she wished me to write her as
often as possible & she would pay the Postage both ways, & remarked that Pennetts
Letters contained the most news & were the most interesting of (almost) any she had ever perused
But it is not my wish or design to boast of friends or of any particular attention paid me
by distinguished persons, my object is simply to contrast the general feelings of former
Day friends towards me with those which have been manifested towards me by
relatives & those under their special influence since I came west. But I do not presume to
complain of my living while with you as to provisions &c, for if ^I^ had felt no greater trials than what I exs-
perienced from the privations I suffered they would have been small setting aside from instances in
which a bad feeling was manifested towards me by yourself Son {{Wilford Woodruff Jr.|Wilford]], whoever might have been the cause
of it—once in particular when I took it upon me to go in the room & in behalf of your honored Father
to ask for somthing ^to^ eat as he felt backward about going & you hesitated about it saying every
thing fell upon you to do, &c, & when I replied that I did not know what we should do having nothing
at all to eat you said I know what you can do, you mustn't eat so much—did you concider that
your Parents had but one thing at a time to eat & that a great allowance aught to be made on this
account as well as for your having put one of your family join with us, as also, the amount
of the exspression made to me, but you will excuse the length of my remark as I had no
Idea of pat^r^iticularizing on this, I however feel constraind to state to you on this sheet some
things which th'o small in their nature have nevertheless lain with serious weight on
my mind (but as my sheet is already full with croocked marks & blots I must conclude
on another piece I should indeed copy this were not my time for writing so limited & it is for
this reason that this sheet contains so great a variety as to the writing having to improve my most
wearied moments in the penning of the same for which I trust you will make allowance
steady employ at his Trade getting a good living &c, but as I have remarked in the
first part of this sheet a reccollection of the past seems to cast a dark shade
both over the scene & my own mind for I must say that I have been next to being confounded
as it regards many things relating to my Journeying West. I set out with a full confidence that it was according to the will of God I also felt full confidence in the good
feelings of my family friends towards me honestly supposing that I should enjoy
all that confidence, good will, & friendship from my relatives that I had been
accustomed to from all my particular acquaintances & it is a fact that
however unworthy I may have been to recieve the attention, good will &
respect of my neighbours & friends heretofore, I have notwithstanding enjoyed a good degree of the Same & have invariably fared the best where I have
been most acquainted, & I have had some intimations of the respect which
I have formerly had paid to me since I have been at Burlington, Mrs Stare & her
Sister Daughters of Mr James The Camp of have paid all that attention to me since I have been here that could even have been asked by a person of
high rank, Mr Stare has a splended house which he build in connection with
Govenor Clark they live in sight of us. Mrs Stare & Susan have called upon us a
number of times they called soon after I came & Mrs S. gave me a very pressing
invitation to come & spend a day with them & to take off any Idea of its being
a mere compliment she adds It would seem so good to have a visit with you
I have visited them twice & spent the Day in the most agreeable manner I felt my
self perfectly at home in their society or as with home friends alth'o they are accounted as some of the most Proud & high feeling Ladies that Burlington offer'd
Indeed they live in high stile I have also had Letters from Pennett Redman &
I can assure you, they give evidence of having been written in the Spirit of the
highest degree of friendship she speaks of my "most precious Letter" (as she terms
it) & speaks of the numberless times as it were she calld at the office
before she read one from me & that the days seemed to her like weeks
so great was her anxiety to hear from me she wished me to write her as
often as possible & she would pay the Postage both ways, & remarked that Pennetts
Letters contained the most news & were the most interesting of (almost) any she had ever perused
But it is not my wish or design to boast of friends or of any particular attention paid me
by distinguished persons, my object is simply to contrast the general feelings of former
Day friends towards me with those which have been manifested towards me by
relatives & those under their special influence since I came west. But I do not presume to
complain of my living while with you as to provisions &c, for if I had felt no greater trials than what I exsperienced from the privations I suffered they would have been small setting aside from instances in
which a bad feeling was manifested towards me by yourself Son Wilford, whoever might have been the cause
of it—once in particular when I took it upon me to go in the room & in behalf of your honored Father
to ask for somthing to eat as he felt backward about going & you hesitated about it saying every
thing fell upon you to do, &c, & when I replied that I did not know what we should do having nothing
at all to eat you said I know what you can do, you mustn't eat so much—did you concider that
your Parents had but one thing at a time to eat & that a great allowance aught to be made on this
account as well as for your having put one of your family join with us, as also, the amount
of the exspression made to me, but you will excuse the length of my remark as I had no
Idea of particularizing on this, I however feel constraind to state to you on this sheet some
things which th'o small in their nature have nevertheless lain with serious weight on
my mind (but as my sheet is already full with croocked marks & blots I must conclude
on another piece I should indeed copy this were not my time for writing so limited & it is for
this reason that this sheet contains so great a variety as to the writing having to improve my most
wearied moments in the penning of the same for which I trust you will make allowance