alone in the streets than I have
and many times I would sooner have
taken a good horse-whipping than
done it, but all this would be joyfully
endured if only the Spirite of the Lord
would dwell with me to comfort me
and support me in times of trial so
far as deriving spiritual benefit is
concerned my mission has ben a
partial failure at least, and I think
my whole life is a failure. I sacrifis-
ed the object of all my natural affect-
tions and the only girl that could
have made me happy in this life,
It was my own fault that she proved
false to me because of the coldness
of my letters. I acted as I did in that
matter thinking that the Lord might
be displeased with that alliance, and
hoping that by disolving it I might
get an increased portion of his spirite
but alas my hopes were vain and
now at times my life is truly

alone in the streets than I have and many times I would sooner have taken a good horse-whipping than done it, but all this would be joyfully endured if only the Spirite of the Lord would dwell with me to comfort me and support me in times of trial So far as deriving spiritual benefit is concerned my mission has ben a partial failure at least, and I think my whole life is a failure. I sacrifis -ed the object of all my natural affect -tions and the only girl that could have made me happy in this life It was my own fault that she proved false to me because of the coldness of my letters. I acted as I did in that matter thinking that the Lord might be displeased with that alliance, and hoping that by disolving it I might get an increased portion of his spirite but alas my hopes were vain and now at times my lifes is truly