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his own way without consulting me scarcly in anything unless I
draged it out of him, & knowing it was my place & Duty
to understand what was going on I enquired into matters untill
in several instances he insulted me in the office & manifested
much anger in the midst of considerable company &
as I would not quarrel with him at least in company
I quit the room, when he got mad he would say
how much the Twelve were lying up over his labours &
he out to have his share of it as well as they. In several
instance he threatened of leaving the office & going home as once
as he had threatened it so much I finally told him I did
not care how quick he went. yes he says I know that is what
you want to get read of me & get Br Clark & gyou will do
well enough. their has been so much of this spirit that ther
has been No union I have been a speckled Bird ^& stranger^ among them
untill it has caused me tears & sorrow by day & night I
have grown old under it we have never bowed our knees
to gether in prayer but once since we met unless it has been ain
a conference. if men are not agreed how can they walk to together
Had they have Ben an Enemy I could have met them, But
they were my councellors in one sens tried friend, men
from whom I expected Better things Men that ought to have
known my place & open it to me & helped me to fill it
instead of placing me in a situations whare I must war
for it & gain evry inch of growing or at the point of the Bayonet
In speaking of the Emigration Elder Hedlock has said it was
a vary Bad plan to change names & whenever he did leave
He could make me an Agent & transact business is his name
as his name was now so universally known he has taken
No pains to acquaint me with the buisness or introduce
me to any of the captains but generally if any course to do business
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his own way without consulting me scarcly in anything unless I
draged it out of him, & knowing it was my place & Duty
to understand what was going on I enquired into matters untill
in several instances he insulted me in the office & manifested
much anger in the midst of considerable company &
as I would not quarrel with him at least in company
I quit the room, when he got mad he would say
how much the Twelve were lying up over his labours &
he out to have his share of it as well as they. In several
instance he threatened of leaving the office & going home as once
as he had threatened it so much I finally told him I did
not care how quick he went. yes he says I know that is what
you want to get read of me & get Br Clark &you will do
well enough. their has been so much of this spirit that ther
has been No union I have been a speckled Bird & stranger among them
untill it has caused me tears & sorrow by day & night I
have grown old under it we have never bowed our knees
to gether in prayer but once since we met unless it has beenin
a conference. if men are not agreed how can they walk to together
Had they have Ben an Enemy I could have met them, But
they were my councellors in one sens tried friend, men
from whom I expected Better things Men that ought to have
known my place & open it to me & helped me to fill it
instead of placing me in a situations whare I must war
for it & gain evry inch of growing or at the point of the Bayonet
In speaking of the Emigration Elder Hedlock has said it was
a vary Bad plan to change names & whenever he did leave
He could make me an Agent & transact business is his name
as his name was now so universally known he has taken
No pains to acquaint me with the buisness or introduce
me to any of the captains but generally if any course to do business