88 Bowery Street New York Dear Phebe Notwithstanding we are at times flung into the deepest suspens in consequence of not hearing from our dearest friends for a season yet I rejo- ice that the day comes when we understand the cause of all & our minds are unloded of its burthen. As it has been with you so it has bean with me in one respect: I have looked with feelings of the deepest interest for a letter from my Dear Wife (in whose bosom my heart has a resting place) but I had looked in vain untill I began to think that I should no more hear from my Phebe & Sarah untill I left the Shores of America But thank the Lord my great suspens & fears (for great they were) are now removed. yesterday after spending several hours with Brother Ilus in his Store (who is well & in good spirits) I went to the post Office as I have done almost every Day or sent. I again called for a letter & to my great joy I recieved one from you with a few lines from Elder Smoot under Date of Sept 19th 1839. I wrote you a letter at Springfield Ill 20 of Aug paid the postage on it & requested you to write to Buffalo Ny. Farmington Ct & City of New york. I am sorry you did not obtain that letter for I gave a [sheet] account of my travels the way the Lord put means in our hands. my preaching & visit among the Island Saints I visited the grave of Brother Brown. the resignation of Sister Brown was great the whole church sent their respects to you. I also wrote a letter to you on the 30th of Sept at Farmington ct Eunice also wrote I also gave you a brief account of my travels in that letter & paid the postage on the same I am in hop^e^s you will get that letter I perceieve that those letters that are post paid are more liable to miscary than those that are not so I will not pay the postage on this letter & I pray the Lord that it may fall into your hands. As regards your Situation in Sickness I truly feel to sympathize with you & Sarah, your situation has been shone me I have had several interviews with you since I left home & I have been aware that you was in affliction. but your patience & resignation in your trials as great conso lation to me & I can still have confidence my Dear companion to invite you even in your Deepest trials to leam upon the arm of that God who has upheld you untill the present day we can do no better than to trust in him whether in life or Death. the Saints all seem to be much afflicted this season But may the Lord have mercey upon us all I pray & not take our lives from the Earth but that we may be humble & finally have a victory over the destroyer but even should we die some of us it would be in one of the best of causes & we should sleep but a short time before we should be awoke & meet together in a glory Celestial to part no more whare sickness & sorrow is known no more But yet I expect to enjoy Blessings with you & Sarah in the family circle though I thus speak, I truly felt sorry to hear of your & Sarah’s sickness but I feel thankful that you have any friends that are able & willing to render you