Autobiography 1883 Tullidge's Quarterly Magazine Notes 2
was a very interesting day to me. I
attended the family meeting of President Brigham Young and he addressed
the meeting at great length during the day and evening. There were
present of the quorum of the Twelve Brigham Young Heber C. Kimball
Willard Richards Orson Pratt Wilford Woodruff George A Smith Amasa
Lyman and Ezra T. Benson.
After singing and prayer by President Young
he arose and addressed the meeting and remarked that he had invited
the Twelve to be present though they were not of his family yet he
wished them to fact free and speak such things as the Lord shall give
them. He said, "Let me state a principle by which you may
contemplate much. For the word of understanding many have
suffered jealousies to arise which afflicted their minds with
borrowed troubles and uneasiness fearing the Lord loved some
others more than themselves. This I have seen in the
Church ever since its rise. It was manifeste in Kirtland. When
the first Bishop was ordained, Tthis jealous feeling was manifest
Some wondered if the Lord would think enough of them to ordain them
a Bishop. Father Morley and others who were present can bear
record of this fact. And when the Twelve were chosen the same
feeling existed and in fact I will not except all of them some of whom
manifested the same feelings when the Bishops were ordained. This
Spirit has been the overthrow of many in this Church and in fact
upon this principle thousands have fallen in all ages
The Lord gives to every man all the power
influence and authority he can wield in righteousness and all that his
goodness and faithfulness merits. Then why should jealousies
arise or what benefit can come by suffering such feelings to exist
None at all; but he who cherishes such feelings commence^s^ trying
